ALteR EgO!!

hahaha.. i feel kind of silly writing this,,

as far as i remember, this other part of me was exist when i was nine or ten years of ages..

it was all started in one of my afternoon class of religion.. i was waiting for my turn to read the holy Qur’an, when i started acting funny,, makin’ silly sound,, and just practically annoyed everyone in class..

then my teacher said, “adis, what happen to you?? you don’t do stuff like this normally.. is this you??” but i cant remember what my answer was at that time, but i do remember that since that day, my teacher began to call me ‘Udis’ everytime i act weird.. He said it was the other me that comes alive.. hahahaha

But since then, i do call myself Udis everytime i want to do silly things, imitating pets sound, basicly everything out of ordinary.. then, when people around me begin to shout, “Adis, cut it out!!” i’d answer, “this is not Adis.. It’s Udis” sometimes in a very creepy sound...

hahahahahahaa….

Udis just lastin for about two years i guess.. i cant remember when was the last time i brought her up or even mention her..

but i guess she’s still there.. you know,, the deepest part of me,, that wanted to do everything without being scared of every role or value that surround me..

i think everyone have this side of traits..

is it split personality? emm,, i think not..

at least for me it’s not,, i was totally aware of the fact that i made this character up.. and i control it.. it’s just part of growing up.. and having fun..

but honestly, i found such a comfort when i was being ‘Udis’.. where i can be as loud as i want,, as creepy as i want,, as natural as i want,, and sometimes as sick as i want,,

it got me to think though.. am i living a lie right now?? but you can’t escape values and roles in your whole life right?? everything you do is going to matter to the people around you,, to the world around you,,

and there are certain acts that people expect to see in yourself,, as a president for example,, you’re not suppose to fart in front of people.. you’re not suppose to say something in a silly sound.. you have to be as clean as you can..

so i guess i’m not living a lie,, just being normal,,

it’s not fun i know,, but i guess i’m still lucky,, cos’ i still can be ‘Udis’ anytime i want,, i’m not a president.. hahahh..

So,, have you met Udis??