Domestic VioLence...

hmm... have you ever yelled at your friend? screaming at her/his face? tell her/him how much she/he bugs you? and how such a jerk you think they were?

ten bucks said you had never...
but, what about your loved one?
have you ever point her/him in the face when you're arguing?

ever said the meanest thing you thought you'd never said to anyone?
even slap her/him when things got too rocky??

i'm pretty sure some of you are familiar with that..
god, why is it so easy for us to do that? for me at least...
i can say that i'm pretty nice to my friends, but when it comes to him...

i just lost it...

yelled at him.. and all those slapping...

hhhh.... is it really the real me inside??
why am i becoming such this kind of person?
intollerant.. stubborn.. selfish.. foolish..

dont get me wrong... i do love him.. with all my heart.. but sometimes i just cant control myself.. why?? is it because i can? because i feel i have the rights to do that cos he's my boyfriend?? i do feel awful everytime after... but all those tears can never took back everythings i said..

hiks hiks... i'm so sorry beib... i do...
and you were so sweet... as always..

you never yelled back.. never..
just like i said, you keep your head down everytime i went crazy..
and i thank you for that..

and the best part is, you fixed me..
you let me know my mistakes.. but in a sweet way.. you let me realize how silly i've been.. then you took my hand, hugged me close...
and that's when i realized how lucky i am.... luv u sayang....